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  Beneath the Rainbow

  Copyright © 2018 Lisa Shambrook

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  This book is a work of fiction. The characters, incidents, and dialogue are drawn from the author’s imagination and are not to be construed as real. Any resemblance to actual events or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.

  Published by H2O

  an imprint of BHC Press

  Library of Congress Control Number: 2018931013

  ISBN: 978-1-947727-41-0 (Softcover)

  ISBN: 978-1-947727-88-5 (Ebook)

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  Cover painting by Lisa Shambrook

  This book is for Bekah, Dan and Caitlin

  and Vince

  May we all reach that distant star…

  Freya was seven-years-old when she got hit by the car. It was a 4x4 with a bull bar.

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  Freya raced ahead full of giggles and determination, keen to reach the swings before Mum changed her mind and yielded to Jasmine’s drowsy grumbles. As the morning sun spilled its rays she ignored Mum’s groan and her baby sister’s whine, and sprinted ahead. Moments later she scrambled onto the swing, her smile as big as her anticipation.

  Freya couldn’t wait to swing as high as she could and feel the rush that made her stomach tumble…

  So she swung, pumping her little legs to and fro, thrusting her body forward and back again as the swing gained momentum. She loved swinging, loved the wind rushing through her hair and caressing her bare arms.

  Freya laughed as the swing planted a tickle in her stomach. She giggled and pumped harder. She closed her eyes and gripped the chains, pushing outward with as much force as her arms allowed.

  As she swung her mind wandered. She opened her eyes and stared up at the sky. It was blue. It hadn’t been blue, not blue like this, for a long time. This blue was deep, bright and strong like the blue in Dad’s favourite t-shirt. This blue ruled the sky and banished clouds forever. Freya laughed, and the impetus of the swing tickled her tummy again sending ripples of joy to her head.

  Freya, free and flying, launched up into the pure, blue sky… Freya was a bird, flapping her wings and soaring, free from gravity, free from the irritating grizzles springing from the pushchair, free from her mother’s sighs and best of all, free from restriction.

  The chains went slack and the seat she was cradled in jumped as she reached its zenith. She was as high as she could go, but she kept it going, the seat jerking every time she hit her apex. Her hands gripping that tiny piece of freedom like it was the last thing she would ever do…

  It was.

  Who wants to listen to mother’s restraining call when you’re having so much fun? Who wants to go home holding onto a slow pushchair when you can fly, your little feet propelling you, and your imagination, along the tarmac with wings? She ran, charging through the open park gates. The huge, black railings, like prison bars, released her and the driver of the 4x4 had no chance to stop.

  The skid marks, that decorated the road for many months after, did not begin until Freya’s tiny body had been flung aside.

  Screams echoed in Freya’s head, nothing else, just screams, and her mother’s screams pierced her through.

  Then blue, flashes of blue, and screams like sirens. Blue flared and the wails stopped, and Freya was silent. The world was silent. Everything was still.

  Freya’s body jerked, once, then again…then again. Her mind did not. Her mind was free, still flying, up, up into the blue…the blue of Daddy’s t-shirt, the blue that ruled the sky…

  There were no sudden movements, no jerk as the swing reached the top. This time Freya flew straight and free, rising all the time into the fiercest, most beautiful blue she had ever seen…

  She rose and the blue became deeper, more intense. Then light diffused the colour, throwing radiance across her, warming her face and enveloping her in a feeling quite unlike anything she knew. This joy was a million times more exquisite than the heady happiness of swinging as high as she could. It didn’t even match Mum’s kisses or the feeling she got when Daddy wrapped his arms around her and hugged her ‘til she laughed—this was something else.

  Freya bathed in the light, still rising and ascending through the mirage of azure and gold. She relaxed and allowed the flow to propel her and she somersaulted in the sky. Life surged through her veins and Freya took control. She thrust forward and upward soaring into the light.

  The blend of blue and gold suffused her entire being and as she ascended the blue faded and the gold paled until she was surrounded in pure light, white light, nothing but light. Freya felt at complete peace and threw herself on, disappearing into the brilliance, becoming part of it.

  For a moment she was lost within it, where she belonged, wrapped in the most unbelievable pure peace, like being cocooned inside brand new, white cotton towels.

  Then memories, memories of before, memories of life, returned and they came thick and fast, yet she comprehended every one, and as they came, her mind grew. The capacity of her awareness increased and with it all her senses sharpened. It wasn’t like before…her seven-year-old mind had grown. It was like she’d been operating with an old computer, one that struggled with little virtual memory, and now the cache was enormous, overflowing with information she’d always stored, but never knew how to access.

  She suddenly knew the answers to a millennia of questions, mainly the “Why,” and “What if,” ones. Questions that her parents, and philosophers, had theorised about for years! The knowledge made her grin and her little body began to shake with quiet laughter.

  “I know why Daddy-long-legs exist!” She giggled. “And I know how to make rainbows!” She grinned, her eyes bright with anticipation. “I’m going to make rainbows, lots of them!”

  Then clarity filled her mind and all of a sudden reality emerged. “I’m not ready,” she whispered, “I’m not ready.”

  Freya’s eyes glazed with unshed tears and she trembled. “I think…I died…” she began, “I’m alone…” She closed her eyes, but even as she whispered she knew she wasn’t alone. She could almost feel strong, yet gentle arms embracing her, comforting her, and she could almost hear a soft and melodious voice telling her to open her eyes.

  She did and the glare began to fade. Salmon pink infused the light, like daybreak, and heavenly colours mingled as the brightness lessened. Pale hyacinth blue swirled within the pink, and as the dazzle disappeared her eyes immediately adjusted.

  The green beneath her was the most luscious and inviting she had ever seen. The tree she now sat leaning against was shaped perfectly to offer a place to rest, and its blossom hung just low enough to enjoy its beautiful fragrance. Freya gasped. Flowers nodded their heads and beautifully plumed, but tiny, birds flit to and fro, singing as if their tiny hearts depended on it.

  Entranced, Freya touched the diamond-encrusted grass. Her bare toes blissfully splayed, letting blades spring through her toes and spray her feet with dew. She laughed and stood and reached up for the dripping blossom. She pulled it towards her nose and inhaled then let go, and laughed again as the bough sprang back into place.

  She pirouetted, letting the white dress she was wearing whirl around her legs and then she bounded away, twirling round and round and round. When she stopped, and wasn’t even dizzy, she gazed about her. She wasn’t alone. She couldn’t possibly be alone with all this life around her. Electricity charged the air and she danced towards a patch of
flowers.

  All the colours of the rainbow smiled up, or down, at her.

  Huge yellow sunflowers, like the one she’d once planted in a paper cup at school and nurtured until it had finally bloomed in the garden, hung heavy with brown seeds as they bent their heads, and saffron-yellow petals rippled in the breeze. Love-in-the-Mist, recalled memories of scattering seeds with Mum… Freya’s gaze moved over the flowers, scarlet poppies with inky black centres, her mother’s favourite purply-blue roses, snow-white arum lilies, blue periwinkle interspersed with golden-orange California poppies and her favourite, bluebells, nodding their tiny flowers.

  Freya’s finger delicately brushed the closest lily tracing the velvety spathe, and a strange feeling stirred. She felt the flower breathe! The sensation made Freya jump. She stared at the flower and lowered her finger once more. This time she purposefully poked her finger inside the silky trumpet and didn’t recoil as the flower’s life force melted into her.

  Freya opened her mind and allowed emotions and simple feelings of beauty flow through her. The feelings weren’t strong, or rich, just pure and simple, and Freya knew at once that all the flowers were vibrantly alive, not just with colour and scent, but with life of their own, each a simple, but divine entity.

  It was then that she let the tingle of the grass beneath infuse her and she laughed again.

  Her giggles filled the air and she danced away, full of life. She danced and danced, twirling this way and that, twisting beneath blossomed boughs and skipping through cherry-red poppies and bluebells. When she was done she flopped to the ground amid the bluebells. Her hands brushed the mat of flowers and she lowered her head, staring intently at the spray of tiny bells.

  They were so blue, cornflower and forget-me-not blue, bluebell blue! Their strappy leaves stood erect and strong and Freya marvelled at each intricate flower.

  The detail reminded her of the High Definition adverts on television that had frustrated her dad so much. “I haven’t got an HD TV,” he’d loudly complain, “so how on earth am I s’posed to see the miraculous difference on the TV in the ad?” Freya now had high definition eyes, high definition touch, high definition everything! And with that unconscious thought came the sudden realisation her eyesight was as clear as the proverbial bell. The scratch on her leg from the playground was gone and the tangles in her long, brown hair had vanished. She was perfect, perfect in every way.

  All this was suddenly too much. Freya’s fingers slipped through the flowers and her now perfect eyes lifted. She gazed about her, her mouth slightly open and a mystified expression on her face. Her brow creased and things didn’t look as clear as they should.

  “It’s as you want it.” A clear voice rang out behind her, and Freya spun round.

  A small boy stood to her rear, shattering the illusion of perfection.

  “A boy!” she said, barely hiding her distaste.

  He grinned and nodded. “I am a boy.” He took a step closer and Freya was up on her feet. “I’m Jake.” He held out his hand.

  She stayed put, her feet buried in bluebells. When she didn’t respond, he continued unfazed. “It’s how you like,” he tried to explain, “this is your heaven. It’s got your favourite things in it.”

  She shook her head. “So where’s Purple Ted?” she asked raising her eyebrow.

  “Ta da!” Jake sang, as a purple teddy bear appeared among the bluebells.

  Both Freya’s eyebrows rose and she crouched to reclaim her teddy from the flowerbed. She hugged him delightfully close and inhaled the bear’s familiar homely smell. Unshed tears left a film across her eyes and Freya took a moment to herself. When she looked up the boy was gone.

  “Where did you go?” she cried.

  He stepped out of the shadows. She frowned again, there were no shadows. “You wanted a moment of privacy,” he told her.

  She hugged Ted tight then allowed him to drop to her side in her hand. “He used to be my favourite teddy, but I’m too old for them now.”

  “No one’s too old for teddy bears,” said Jake.

  She shrugged, but didn’t let go of Purple Ted. “So why are you here?”

  “I’m your welcoming committee, it’s my turn!” He laughed and his laugh made her feel warm inside. She offered her first smile and was rewarded with a huge toothy grin. “You’re my assignment!”

  She bristled. “I’m no one’s assignment!”

  “It’s okay Freya…”

  “You know my name?”

  “Of course!” He smiled brightly again. “I’ve been watching you.”

  “For how long?”

  “Since I knew you’d be my assignment.”

  “I’m not your assignment!” she reminded him.

  He flapped his arms. “I know, I know…since I knew you were the one then.”

  “And when was that?”

  “When you were swinging.”

  “On the swing? But I wasn’t dead then.”

  “I know! You were full of life. It’s a real shame, but I was excited you were coming anyway!”

  “Did you see me die?”

  “Later.” He waved away her question. “I’m your welcoming committee, here to help you understand heaven.”

  She tried a smile. “Tell me then…” She opened her arms and encompassed the meadow they stood in. “Tell me what all this is and where I am.”

  His smile, if it were possible, grew even brighter. “This is your heaven.”

  “You already said that.”

  He ignored her sarcasm. “These flowers, this garden, they’re all yours.”

  “Mine?”

  “Can’t you see the flowers aren’t normal? They’re all flowering together even though they shouldn’t be.”

  She hadn’t noticed, but now she did. She remembered Mum’s grief when the bluebells finished and recalled how Mum always said it was sad when one season finished, but the next always brought another swathe of beauty with its own flowers. Mum loved every season, even the crunchy carpet of leaves in the autumn and winter’s snowdrops had her enthusing all over again.

  Now Freya gazed across the clusters of flowers and understood, not only were the plants out of season, but each held a meaning for her.

  Primroses, tiny lemon-yellow ones pushed up through the grass as she recalled how both she and her mum preferred plants that were natural and old-fashioned. As she watched primroses surface, their tough, wrinkled leaves unfurling and thin stalks revealing buds that quickly opened, her smile deepened. She raised her hands and grinned. “Watch this!” she commanded.

  She swung her hands upwards like a conductor before his orchestra and loosed her mind.

  Bright orange geums burst forth, intermingled with bronze irises, more irises appeared, rising up through sword-like clumps of silver leaves, their buds unfurling to reveal huge silken flowers in an array of colours. Amongst these were black tulips, pink tulips and white tulips. Daisies the colour of butter cream, paeonies seemingly made of bowls of crinkled petals, gossamer-haired pulsatillas, pink, shaggy dianthus, the palest yellow daffodils, more roses and plum-coloured poppies.

  Columbine and clematis climbed up into the trees and sweet peas twisted around trunks.

  Foxgloves, verbena and sky-blue delphiniums grew tall, whilst snowdrops, cyclamen and delicate violas carpeted the woodland floor.

  Jake kept his trademark grin as he sidestepped a patch of fuchsias, and avoided decapitation from a whippy willow branch, could you still get decapitated if you were already dead?

  And Freya hadn’t finished adding sweet-smelling philadelphus, a wine-coloured magnolia and a Christmas tree.

  “Any more?” asked Jake.

  She folded her arms across her chest surveying her work. “Nope, I think that’s it…for now.” She nodded with a broad, satisfied smile that matched Jake’s and appraised her heaven. She nodded again. “It’s good.”

  There’s something I have to show you.” Jake’s face was grim, and his lack of smile alarmed Freya.

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nbsp; She rippled her hand through the bluebells and closed her eyes in contemplation. When Jake didn’t continue, she opened one eye and looked at him. He stared at her, unblinking, but with that same serious expression. “What?” she asked.

  Jake dropped his gaze and placed a steadying hand on his knee as he moved from the grass to standing. Freya looked up at him. She didn’t need to shield her eyes although the light was as bright, if not brighter, than a hot summer’s day. He wore a shimmery pale blue waistcoat over a white shirt, and light brown jeans. He pushed his floppy, tawny hair away from his face and bent forward to offer his hand.

  Not bothered any more about equal opportunities, she took it and stood. “So?” She met his eyes.

  He gave a deep sigh and shook his head. “This is the bit I wasn’t really looking forward to, but no one can get away from it.”

  “What is it?”

  “We need to go and see something.”

  “Where?”

  “Okay, we don’t need to go anywhere, it’s a figure of speech. But let’s move somewhere quiet.” He gently tugged her hand.

  “This isn’t quiet enough?” she asked with a small grin. All she could hear was the hum of bees and the birds’ soft twitter.

  “Humour me. Let’s just move away a bit.” Jake led her out of the woodland and across the green sward to a huge weeping willow.

  As they sat beneath its quivering boughs, Freya giggled. “A weeping willow and no water, I’ll have to do something about that…”

  Jake put his hand over hers as she began to move her hands in a fluid movement. “The water will have to wait.”

  “Okay, so what now, what’s so important?”

  “This is.” Jake closed his eyes.

  “Do I close my eyes too?”

  “Just for a moment,” he instructed in no more than a whisper. “Freya, think of your family…”

  “My family?”